:: Sat 18th June ::
Hello everyone...just a very quick note to let you know that I am just back from a very exhausting and harrowing week in Dorset. Things with my Mum took a nosedive on Sunday and I was advised to scoot down asap as it was not thought she would make it through.
Miraculously a week later she is still hanging on in there, critically ill mind you, but I am trying as hard as I can to remain postive and hold on to good thoughts.
I know there's nothing to be done other than wait. And hope. So I am doing those things.
Thank you so much for all your kind thoughts and good wishes, I am extremely grateful. Will update on this post again in a day or two. Lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
:: Weds 22nd June ::
A white feather.
It fell from the sky last Tuesday evening as I was coming out of the hospital with a heavy heart. The feather drifted down from above and landed on my chest, tucking itself into the hooded top I was wearing. I couldn't quite beleive it had happened, I kept looking at the feather and looking at the sky and thinking I should perhaps catch sight of an angel or something. No sign of any angel, but it really did bring me some much needed comfort and hope at the end of a gruelling, harrowing day. A Good Sign wouldn't you say? Yes, I think so.
My Mum continues to hang on to her life. The medical peeps tell me that slowly slowly slowly she is making her recovery, a little stronger each day, a little nearer to the light. I have to confess I am quite worn out with carrying around this burden of worry and uncertainty. I wish I could lay it down somewhere, leave it be for a while. I am trying. I've been back into routine this week, here there and everywhere with Little B, singing songs, shaking bells, rolling play-doh, pushing plastic cars. Doing the school run, food shopping, cooking, tidying (not so much), loading and unloading laundry, supervising homework. It's been comforting to immerse myself in these routine things, it really has. I do value the fact that my home life is happy and content for the most part. I could do without Little B's 4am starts, but hey, it's pretty good round here. And for that I am truly thankful.
Will be back again soon, thanks for dropping by xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
keeping positive thoughts of you and you mom. hope she is better soon. hugs to you and your family. gert
Posted by: gert | August 04, 2011 at 04:15 PM
Hugs to you Lucy - and yes, the angels are watching over you all for sure - white feathers are always a sign they are there.
Val
Posted by: Valerie Slater | July 03, 2011 at 03:32 PM
Hugs coming your way! Cx
Posted by: Catherine | June 29, 2011 at 08:28 AM
Awhile back I was driving my husband and I home from town and before I knew it I saw this white bird fly in front of my car and feathers flew all about. It was the weirdest feeling. I had hit a dove and my reaction was one of disbelief. I have never seen a white dove other than in magic shows. For it to have flown out of nowhere was so strange. I said to my husband, "OMG! I hit a white dove!" And yes, he saw it too. When we got home I found 1 white feather in the grill of the car. I thought about that bird for weeks. A snow white dove....as in the song God sends his love on the wings of a snow white dove. I am sure when the white feather landed on you that you too had strange feelings, like it was some sort of message from above. Maybe it was an angel Lucy, like you said :)
Posted by: Susanne Tyree | June 29, 2011 at 05:54 AM
How magical to have a large white feather attach itself to you. It's as if the universe were trying to send you a message. I love when things like that happen. It causes me to think about what might be out there just beyond our reach.
Sorry about your mother....I hope she gets better soon. I just started reading your blog and I think its so wonderful to live in England. I'd love to visit some day.
Keep looking for feathers.....all the best. Emily
Posted by: Emily-Jane | June 29, 2011 at 05:39 AM
Dearest Lucy,
My mother of 84 years left us last Sept. It's just now starting to feel like it was longer than a few days ago. And my tears still fall. I keep a photo on my desk, in my purse and in my "transformation chamber" (her name for her bathroom). When I get teary, I pick up the nearest picture and kiss her good. Makes me smile again and bless her soul. Hope this could comfort you a little.
Blessings,
Moonie
Posted by: Suzi Moon aka Moonie | June 28, 2011 at 05:24 PM
♥
Posted by: Jeanie Brown | June 28, 2011 at 12:30 PM
Sorry to hear your mum is so ill. You and your family are in my thought and prayes aat this difficult time. My best, Kathleen from USA
Posted by: kathleen P | June 28, 2011 at 03:11 AM
Keeping you and your mom in my thoughts a prayers! I hope she will continue to get stronger and better everyday!
Posted by: Leah S | June 28, 2011 at 03:06 AM
Oh, Lucy, I am thinking of you and worrying about you, and saying prayers for you and your Mom. Take care, sweetface.
Posted by: cathleen | June 28, 2011 at 02:09 AM
Warm positive thoughts for your Mum Lucy, and a big warm hug for you too. Waiting, and hoping, and trying to stay positive, and maintain a semblance of doing "normal" things is very hard work!! Prayers and love to you all, Gloria
Posted by: Gloria J W | June 28, 2011 at 01:48 AM
Keep a chin up and only the best wishes for you and your mum. I have had the vigil with my mum and it was as you say grueling. Angels are watching over you and yours.
Posted by: Donna Petruso | June 27, 2011 at 10:46 PM
Thinking of you. I really relate to that feeling of needing to lay down the worry for a while. We had an 11 day SCBU stay; it was terrifying and so relentless and inescapable.
Posted by: Merry | June 27, 2011 at 09:46 PM
Thinking of both of you with all my heart. It is such a difficult time and I know how you feel.
Posted by: Yvette | June 27, 2011 at 08:53 PM
x
Posted by: P | June 27, 2011 at 08:50 AM
A white feather falling from the sky. What a beautiful sign from the powers that Be. I am still thinking of you and will continue to do so. Blessed be Lucy x
Posted by: Nadia | June 27, 2011 at 07:35 AM
my prayers are with you.
Take care.
Kisses
Posted by: Gisele Montenegro | June 27, 2011 at 02:04 AM
bless you Lucy, all good hopes and prayers for you and your family from the other side of the pennines xx
Posted by: Netty | June 26, 2011 at 07:26 PM
Lucy, Best wishes and God's blessings on your mom...I loved looking at your very bright granny square quilt. It reminds me of something my godmother (who is in heaven now) would make. May God give you peace and comfort and joy. Blessings from the USA!!!
Posted by: Lea | June 26, 2011 at 05:51 PM
Oh, I feel for you and your family. Praying for you.
Posted by: Allyson | June 26, 2011 at 02:21 PM
Hello Lucy, I keep thinking about you and your Mum. I just want to let you know I've been crocheting the summer garden squares from lots of oddments I had that I couldn't bear to through out. I always thought I couldn't do proper crochet, only edging for knitting. With your helpful instructions and pics I had no problem. I'm now a confirmed addict. I realised when I packed my hooky in my bag to take down my allotment! I'm making a rather pleasant bag out of the summer squares. I'd post a pic but I don't know how. perhaps I need to have my own blog. Anyway my best wishes and thoughts for your Mum's continued recovery.
Posted by: Claire | June 26, 2011 at 10:18 AM
Prayers for you and your loved ones, the Everlasting Arms are under you, you are not alone. I have been there and know how hard it is....much love Julia from Spain
Posted by: Julia Nunn | June 26, 2011 at 07:59 AM
Sorry to hear about your mom. Hope whe is better soom. Quilting and needlework helped me when my mom was ill.
Posted by: Glyndalyn | June 26, 2011 at 04:20 AM
Prayers and love for you and your family...love you..Gidget
Posted by: Gidget White | June 26, 2011 at 03:00 AM
Thinking of you and your Mum.
Posted by: louise | June 25, 2011 at 10:59 PM