I've had a very odd day, lurching between moments of domestic bliss and emotional sadness. This morning I did what I always do in times of anxiety and baked some buns, then iced them pink and decorated them with some long lost rice paper butterflies I discovered in my baking drawer. It was essential I make something sweet, whimsical and colourful, to plump up my heavy heart.
It is with a huge amount of sadness that I find myself mourning the sudden loss of Vanessa Cabban, who many of you might remember as the author of the wonderful blog "Do You Mind if I Knit". Vanessa was such a source of light, kindness, colour, creativity and inspiration, an incredibly talented illustrator, knitter, crocheter and all round creative marvel. She breathed such beauty into everything she did, and I admired her enormously. She began her blogging journey six months before me, and hers was one of the very first creative blogs I ever discovered. In fact, she was the very person who nudged me from the sidelines (via many back and forth emails) and convinced me to start writing my own blog. I shall be forever grateful to her for introducing me to this amazing community and encouraging me to take a leap of faith and become a part of it. It changed the course of my life, and I really don't say that lightly.
I loved and admired the humble way Vanessa shared her creative journey, she was incredibly modest about her many talents and there was a simplicity and honesty to her blogging voice which touched my soul. Her joyful use of bright colour and pattern was so close to my own and yet also very uniquely hers. I loved that we enjoyed a very similar outlook on life and that we shared so much in common - we would often chat to each other by email or phone, sharing little snippets of life as we each meandered through our creative days. Even though I loved Vanessa's textile creations, it was perhaps her little watercolour still life paintings that most stole my heart. Oh they were utterly sublime! I was very very lucky to receive the above painting as a gift for my 40th Birthday, you can read more about it here.
Today I have joined with many people in remembering Vanessa, remembering the bright spirit that she was and the joy she brought to so many. May she rest in peace.