:: Sat 18th June ::
Hello everyone...just a very quick note to let you know that I am just back from a very exhausting and harrowing week in Dorset. Things with my Mum took a nosedive on Sunday and I was advised to scoot down asap as it was not thought she would make it through.
Miraculously a week later she is still hanging on in there, critically ill mind you, but I am trying as hard as I can to remain postive and hold on to good thoughts.
I know there's nothing to be done other than wait. And hope. So I am doing those things.
Thank you so much for all your kind thoughts and good wishes, I am extremely grateful. Will update on this post again in a day or two. Lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
:: Weds 22nd June ::
A white feather.
It fell from the sky last Tuesday evening as I was coming out of the hospital with a heavy heart. The feather drifted down from above and landed on my chest, tucking itself into the hooded top I was wearing. I couldn't quite beleive it had happened, I kept looking at the feather and looking at the sky and thinking I should perhaps catch sight of an angel or something. No sign of any angel, but it really did bring me some much needed comfort and hope at the end of a gruelling, harrowing day. A Good Sign wouldn't you say? Yes, I think so.
My Mum continues to hang on to her life. The medical peeps tell me that slowly slowly slowly she is making her recovery, a little stronger each day, a little nearer to the light. I have to confess I am quite worn out with carrying around this burden of worry and uncertainty. I wish I could lay it down somewhere, leave it be for a while. I am trying. I've been back into routine this week, here there and everywhere with Little B, singing songs, shaking bells, rolling play-doh, pushing plastic cars. Doing the school run, food shopping, cooking, tidying (not so much), loading and unloading laundry, supervising homework. It's been comforting to immerse myself in these routine things, it really has. I do value the fact that my home life is happy and content for the most part. I could do without Little B's 4am starts, but hey, it's pretty good round here. And for that I am truly thankful.
Will be back again soon, thanks for dropping by xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Sending lots of love and positive thoughts to you and your family.
xx
Posted by: Isobel | June 18, 2011 at 09:48 PM
Our thoughts are with you at this worrying time. Hope everything works out fine. x
Posted by: Judith. (Crete) | June 18, 2011 at 09:50 PM
Hi there.. I'm a new lurker to your blog.. been reading here and there for the last few days and LOVE it all! You've inspired me to start writing on a blog :) Your pictures of the scenery around where you live is amazing.. I so want to live in England or Ireland one day.. hubby isn't too interested in the idea.. might have to leave him here (lol.. only kidding!) Anyways..
I just wanted to say that I hope everything goes well for your mom! Sending you lots of thoughts and prayers!
Posted by: Elizabeth C. | June 18, 2011 at 09:51 PM
Bless you all. Chin up were all sending positive thoughts and love to you. xxxx
Posted by: Tickety-boo | June 18, 2011 at 09:52 PM
sending warm thoughts & prayers across the pond to you and your mum. . .
xoxox Patrice
Posted by: Patrice | June 18, 2011 at 09:53 PM
Oh Lucy, thinking of you and your dear little family.
Hx
Posted by: Heather | June 18, 2011 at 09:55 PM
Thinking of you xx
Posted by: Mrs Tightwad | June 18, 2011 at 09:58 PM
Thinking of you all at this difficult time. Lizzie x
Posted by: Liz Noonan | June 18, 2011 at 10:00 PM
Thinking of you at this unimaginably tough time and sending you lots of love. I'm so glad you're able to take such strength from all your messages of support xxxxxxxxxx Kathryn x
Posted by: Kathryn Eales | June 18, 2011 at 10:01 PM
Lucy, same as everybody I am Thinking of you, take Care and be strong in this difficult time.
XXXX petra
Posted by: Petra | June 18, 2011 at 10:05 PM
Sending out positive thoughts to you and your family. God bless, stay strong and take care <3
Karen xxxxxxxx
Posted by: karen beattie | June 18, 2011 at 10:10 PM
As my Tiny One would say...."Blesses" xx
Posted by: KayElleC | June 18, 2011 at 10:12 PM
sending so many good thoughts your way. I have been in a very similar situation to yours 5 years ago. There is nothing worse. xxxxxxx
Posted by: Louisa | June 18, 2011 at 10:15 PM
My thoughts and prayers are with you xx
Posted by: jane | June 18, 2011 at 10:18 PM
Thinking about you and impressed that you are managing to stay positive. Went through this myself a few years ago and the "waiting" was agonising. I did an entire cross stitch kit (a v. complicated one!!) as I found the repetitive action soothing, and the concentration needed was the only thing that kept me sane. Hope you are managing to find a coping mechanism that works for you - maybe lots of crochet? I'm sure you are also getting lots of support from your lovely family too. Hugs and best wishes XX
Posted by: One-oh-four | June 18, 2011 at 10:18 PM
Sending you love and prayers Lucy. ((HUGS)) xx
Posted by: Vicky | June 18, 2011 at 10:19 PM
Prayin' for ya. <3 <3 <3
Posted by: Maddi | June 18, 2011 at 10:20 PM
Thinking about you! Cx
Posted by: Catherine | June 18, 2011 at 10:21 PM
I'm so sorry, I hope you're ok
x
Posted by: Star speckles | June 18, 2011 at 10:27 PM
Thinking of you and your family. xxx
Posted by: Juliab | June 18, 2011 at 10:29 PM
I've been through this too - needlecraft kept me sane when my mind was racing and I needed something to do but had to just sit and wait for news. Thinking of you and your family. xx
Posted by: Merry | June 18, 2011 at 10:32 PM
A (((BIG HUG))) Fiona xxx
Posted by: Fiona Francis | June 18, 2011 at 10:33 PM
So sorry to read that you're mum is so poorly. Sending you and your family lots of love...
Jones x
Posted by: The House of Jones | June 18, 2011 at 10:52 PM
Best wishes to you and your family. Kia Kaha from N.Z. (Ever be strong.) Shirley
Posted by: Shirley Flavell | June 18, 2011 at 10:52 PM
Oh Lucy hope your Mum is going to be better soon Love Susan xxx
Posted by: Susan Wright | June 18, 2011 at 10:57 PM