:: Sat 18th June ::
Hello everyone...just a very quick note to let you know that I am just back from a very exhausting and harrowing week in Dorset. Things with my Mum took a nosedive on Sunday and I was advised to scoot down asap as it was not thought she would make it through.
Miraculously a week later she is still hanging on in there, critically ill mind you, but I am trying as hard as I can to remain postive and hold on to good thoughts.
I know there's nothing to be done other than wait. And hope. So I am doing those things.
Thank you so much for all your kind thoughts and good wishes, I am extremely grateful. Will update on this post again in a day or two. Lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
:: Weds 22nd June ::
A white feather.
It fell from the sky last Tuesday evening as I was coming out of the hospital with a heavy heart. The feather drifted down from above and landed on my chest, tucking itself into the hooded top I was wearing. I couldn't quite beleive it had happened, I kept looking at the feather and looking at the sky and thinking I should perhaps catch sight of an angel or something. No sign of any angel, but it really did bring me some much needed comfort and hope at the end of a gruelling, harrowing day. A Good Sign wouldn't you say? Yes, I think so.
My Mum continues to hang on to her life. The medical peeps tell me that slowly slowly slowly she is making her recovery, a little stronger each day, a little nearer to the light. I have to confess I am quite worn out with carrying around this burden of worry and uncertainty. I wish I could lay it down somewhere, leave it be for a while. I am trying. I've been back into routine this week, here there and everywhere with Little B, singing songs, shaking bells, rolling play-doh, pushing plastic cars. Doing the school run, food shopping, cooking, tidying (not so much), loading and unloading laundry, supervising homework. It's been comforting to immerse myself in these routine things, it really has. I do value the fact that my home life is happy and content for the most part. I could do without Little B's 4am starts, but hey, it's pretty good round here. And for that I am truly thankful.
Will be back again soon, thanks for dropping by xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx